The Cost of Love
Carl is a girl who is skeptical about love due to how her parents' relationship is. She knew she was going to get married anyway.
She loves love and at the same time despises love.
"Maybe true love is only seen in movies" - She mostly says.
She got admission into the university to study medicine and surgery- her desired course.
During her days in the university- now in year 3. She found herself in love with George.
George is also a medical student, but a year 5 medical student.
"I don't understand, isn't the heart supposed to pump blood?" - she muttered in confusion.
"My pulse rate,my heart skipping, the slight happiness whenever I see him. I hope I'm not in love with him"
She continued denying the love she felt for him and promised never to allow him nor anyone to perceive.
One day, she decided to chat with her counselor to know if there's something she could do to stop the feeling because the feelings kept increasing.
On getting across to the counselor, she was uncontented with the answers she got.
She went ahead to search more on the media and she came across hypopituitarism- a disease that doesn't allow one to feel love. She was ready to get rid of the love at all cost that she considered to artificially get hypopituitarism- she knew she wasn't born with it but she wanted to be someone who doesn't feel love.
She was on the edge to do it- all she had to do is to surgically make a particular hormone deficient or dormant.
But then, she remembered she still loves love and she would like to be with the right person one day.
"Karl, are you out of your mind? Do you really dislike love so much that you wanna do something that will cost you this much? Do you think hypopituitarism is a good thing? I hope you're not running crazy"- her instinct spoke to her.
From then, she decided to avoid George as much as she could so that the feelings would naturally go away.
When she got to her final year in the university, she decided to give love a chance and free herself from the bizarre thinking.
She got into a relationship with a guy-Robert. Robert was a working class man- he owns more than 3 companies.
Karl loves Robert because she found everything she wanted in a man in him.
"My dream is finally here, thank you for being patient Karl,I love you" - she thought as she smirked.
They moved on with their relationship and were on the edge of getting married as he had proposed to her.
Karl got the shock of her life when she found out that Robert was GAY. Not just being a gay, she caught him with his gay partner when she visited.
That's not all, when she confronted him, he saw nothing bad in it as he told her it's something normal.
"Something normal you say? You're not even feeling ashamed or remorse? How come I did not find out all this while?" - she said with her shaky voice.
" You're the one getting it mixed up, babe, being gay won't affect our relationship, I'm bisexual, I'm also straight"
She couldn't believe her eyes, " I'm done with this relationship" - she burst into tears.
"C'mon babe, you can't be done, we will be getting married soon. Moreover, you have my ring with you"
She looked at him in disbelief and she threw the ring at him and then ran outside the house.
Everything seems tough for her as her adrenaline keeps sending that she needs to rest and she might soon faint.
She walked staggerly on the road and at one point, she sat down on the road and continued weeping.
It was in the afternoon and she knew she had to just pretend that everything was alright before she would become the center of attraction in the school's premise.
She dusted her clothes and wore a smile as she entered the college.
"Karl?" - a voice called out.
"She looked back and saw it was George. Wow! George, how're you? Long time, it's nice seeing you again, you've got to do something in college right?"
George didn't say a thing as he only kept smiling at her.
"George?"
"Hmm… yeah, Karl, I just can't hide this anymore. I love you, I've been in love with you since I set my eyes on you when you were in your year 2, I really love everything about you, I came to school in search of you- I've been around since a week ago.
I thank God you're here now. Karl, will you please be my love? My heart wants you, I need you, I preserved this love because I
never wanted to cause a distraction…"
" I don't understand, I…I…I…"
" Karl, will you please? I really mean what I said"
" I need to go now"(Karl walked away and she walked as fast as she could)
George was confused but then he decided not to give up on her.
"Karl, how are you feeling now?"
Karl heard the whispers as she opened her eyes to see who was talking to her. To her surprise, it was George.
Her heart skipped a bit. "Ge..oo?"- she tried to call out his name but she noticed she doesn't have much energy.
" Don't speak, you will be fine"
After some hours and she was feeling better, George decided to converse with her.
"Karl, why did you try to take your life? You were rushed to this hospital, I had to rush down here when I heard the news from your neighbor, I've been staying close to your house since 2 days ago."
She could not help but cry, "George, I'm sorry but I really don't want you to intervene, why are you stalking me?"
"I love you,I know you don't feel the same way towards me but no matter what, I can't leave you just like that. I got you a therapist for you already after I got to read the note you left behind, I read about Robert, and I won't want you to try suicide again''
Karl burst into tears, all her effort to utter some words failed.
"I can see you're fine now and the doctor has confirmed it, I'll have my leave now, I know you love Robert and I don't think I can revert that. It's okay, I will find my way"
He stood up to have his leave, " Take care always Karl, I'll always be here if you ever need someone. Don't you ever dare to take your life again!"
He patted her back and reached for the door.
Karl finally found her words, "Don…'t, don't leave, George, I love you" - she cried out.
He stood still and looked back in surprise.
Karl ran to him to hug him, "I love you, please don't leave me!"
Writer Details:Badmus Fatiah✍️
Location:University of Ilorin,Kwara State,Nigeria🇳🇬.
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